It's been a week.
A week since I felt you move.
A week since we found out you were gone.
This week has been hard and very strange. I miss you, baby girl. I miss you, Eisley Mei.
I never knew that I could experience so much pain and heartache, but at the same time, peace and joy. There's no better sight than the one that the Lord showed me as we left the hospital,
We had to say goodbye, but he showed me your spirit. What a beautiful and perfect girl you are! It's amazing to see you dancing. I only wish that I got to see it in person every day.
My hope is in Jesus and that I will dance with you someday in the presence of our Savior and Heavenly Father.
Of course there have been times that I think of how it could be different. The pain in my body is a constant reminder of the labor I went through, yet I have no baby here in my arms. We had been planning and waiting for you for over 34 weeks. It's so weird to go through labor and childbirth and not have you here to care for. But I find comfort in the fact that you are perfectly cared for in a place where there are no tears and no pain. I cannot wait to meet you in that place!
Today has been hard, easier than I expected, but still hard. I had to go back to school today. Life doesn't stop for anyone or anything. I feel like I'm being shoved back in. I don't want to have to keep moving, but I do.
It's not going to be easy.
I will miss you every day.
I will miss you until I meet you in eternity.
You have all my love, Eisley Mei.
xoxo
Momma
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