Saturday, January 31, 2015

If we will follow Him...

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This morning, I was watching Veggie Tales with my boys and the Lord was speaking to me through Josh and the Big Wall.
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The first thing that they said that hit me was, "Sometimes God's plan doesn't make sense."
Which is very, very true. The things that the Lord has been pulling us to lately, don't make sense in too many ways. They don't seem like the "smart" thing to do or the "normal" thing to do. His plan is so far outside of what our plan is. It's so far outside that it doesn't even look like a PLAN. It just looks crazy.
This is really hard for me to grasp, guys. If you know me at all, you know that I am a very detailed-oriented kind of planner. I have a hard time when plans get changed. I have a hard time with feeling out of control. That's where God steps in and tells me, "I got this" (he has to tell me that a lot).

It is extremely difficult to step out and completely trust that He's got this even when it looks so crazy. Which brings on another point from Veggie Tales:

The Lord has given this land to us,
No need to fuss.
He knows what he's doing. 
We know that he will take care of us,
If we will follow him.

Our culture has shaped us. It has taught our nature to be self-reliant. Letting go of that control and trusting that the Lord is going to take care of our needs is very hard. It's scary. Especially when it has to do with finances. Trusting that the Lord will provide financially is one of the hardest hurdles to overcome in many cases. Do I really know and believe that he will take care of us if we follow him there? Knowing me, I will wander around and distract myself with other options thinking that there's a better one. Like I said, I'm a planner and I like to weigh the options.
But at the end of the day, he gently reminds me, "Yes. He does provide." He has been so faithful to provide for us, in big and small ways, over our short 4 1/2 years of marriage. Not just financially and with our physical needs, but emotionally and spiritually. He has never left us. Even in the times that it looked like he did because we were doing what we thought was best.

So why is it so hard to follow him to another city, state or country? Why is it so hard to follow where there is no job security or family near by? Why is it so hard to be faithful to him when he has been, and will be, faithful to us countless times? Because it's uncomfortable and we will be completely out of control.
// We know that he will take care of us, if we will follow him. I will sing that Veggie Tales song every day if I have to. If that's what it takes to prepare my heart for trusting His plan even when it doesn't make sense.